Your situation reminds me again of why God took so much care to underscore the importance of fidelity and commitment within a marriage. When those commands are violated, the resulting hurts are so deep they almost defy a cure. Rebuilding trust is going to call for more than just you willing it to happen. It will require forgiveness and a fresh start built on the basics of your life in Christ. Don’t try to push the facts aside and act as though it never happened. The best place to begin is with you